I am a very neurotic person. I have tried for many years to change this about myself. As I get older I have realized that I need to worry less and work more. I need to not let issues get the best of me. I have gotten a lot better but there is always the initial hurt and resentment of being rejected. My brain turns it into "Well what did I do?" "What is wrong with me?" it continues to run in circles and creates scenarios that dont actually exist except in my mind. Until I realize that there is other things, other reasons besides me as a person or me as an artist. And then I finally GET OUT OF MY HEAD AND GET OVER MYSELF! I am not always the reason. My flaws are not what people think about every time they see me. People dont care.